Sometimes I start posts thinking it's going to end up one way, and they end in a completely different way than I expected. This is one of those posts. As of tonight's weigh in, I have lost 62 pounds from my highest weight. Since I've started "Round 2" of weight loss, I've lost about 20. It's interesting how that seems like a lot and so little all at once.
Sometimes I look in the mirror, and I can tell that I am 2 full sizes smaller .... almost 3. Sometimes I can tell that my jawline is more defined. Sometimes I suddenly realize that I shouldn't wear a certain pair of jeans anymore unless I want to tug them up all day long. Then other times I see the "old me." The girl who avoided mirrors and fitting rooms.
The other day I ran across a school photo from me 60 pounds ago. The beauty of being in education is that you get school photos every year. It's funny how similar I look in both photos, yet so different. Which is exactly how I feel about life. It feels so similar, yet so different.
These weight loss posts are incredibly difficult for me to write because I'm so much in the middle of my journey. I have a long way to go, but I've also come a long way. I have learned to eat for health, but I still struggle with certain food choices. I have discovered a few workouts that I genuinely enjoy, but making it a priority is not happening. The biggest thing I've learned is the importance of choosing daily to keep going.
There are days that I want to run back to the old me because she's comfortable. But if you're not careful, your comfort zone becomes your cocoon, and that cocoon becomes a coffin. Maybe for you your comfort zone is a career, or a relationship, or singleness, or something altogether different. Regardless, as a girl who is learning how to get out of her comfort zone, I urge you to try it as well.
I'm reminded of Peter in Matthew 14 when Jesus walked out on water to meet the boat. The disciples feared him, but Peter mustered up the courage to walk out to Jesus. He stepped out of his comfort zone for something much better, Jesus Christ himself. Granted there was a moment of faltering, but Jesus was there to catch him. And Peter learned to lean on the Son of God. When I want to turn back, I remember Deuteronomy 31:6
Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid; for the Lord your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you.
And that is a promise worth remembering.