Weight Loss Episode 9

Back in the day, I used to blog about my weight loss on Mondays. You can read the previous episodes HERE. I stopped doing it because I didn't like being vulnerable, but I'm slowly learning that honesty is healing. It opens doors and allows others to say, "Me too." Let me tell you, Internet, I am not the model citizen when it comes to this stuff. I'd much rather run away and hide with my friends, Ben & Jerry than talk to you about my health. I'm going to do it though because it keeps me accountable, and it might be helpful to someone someday. Seeing as it has been a year (almost exactly) since I've blogged about my weight, I'd say it's time for an update.

In March of 2011 I hit an all time weight high. (One of these days, I might share that number with you, but not yet.) Then I started learning about food and how wonderful it can taste. I learned about eating when I was hungry and stopping when I was satisfied. Not full, satisfied. I ate s.l.o.w.l.y. really, really slowly. I hardly ever finished my meal because I was satisfied. I tasted every morsel that went into my mouth. I also went on a sugar fast for a month. In 10 weeks, I lost 30 pounds, and I've kept every bit of it off.

Then summer came, and the weight loss slowed down because I was no longer in my school year routine. When school came back around last year, I didn't fit weight loss in as often as I had planned, but over the course of the year I lost 20-25 pounds. I put some on, and took some off, so it's hard to tell you the exact record.

As of the beginning of this school year, I am down a total of 52 pounds from that all time high. Don't get me wrong, I'm extremely proud of that weight loss. It puts me back at a weight that I'm comfortable with. Not happy. Comfortable. I can shop and not hate everything I try on. I can walk into a room and feel confident. At the same time, I'm so frustrated with myself because I'd be at my goal size by now if I had just stuck with it a year and a half ago.

Needless to say, I'm getting back to the weight loss thing. I kind of like the fact that I'm losing weight in stages because I'm learning maintenance as I go. I know it isn't going to be easy, but thankfully, I've got you, Internet, to keep me motivated and on track. I also must say that Momma has lost over 50 pounds, so now she thinks she's special because she can steal my clothes. I can't let her beat me, so really this is just a competition to stay ahead of her.

:j